She says I love you, I'm gonna miss hearing your songs.
And I said, please don't talk about the end
Don't talk about how every living thing
Goes away. She said, friend
All along, thought I was learning how to take
How to bend not how to break
How to live not how to cry,
But really I've been learning how die,
Been learning how to die.
Hey everyone, I 've got nowhere to go.
The grave is lazy, he takes our bodies slow.
And I said please don't talk about the end
Don't talk about how every living thing goes away
She said friend
All along thought I was learning how to take
How to bend not how to break
How to laugh not how to cry.
But really I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die...die...
I've been learning how to die.
Learning How to Die ~ Jon Foreman ~ Winter-EP
Started rubbing sticks together
Thought a spark would take forever
Never dreampt this fire would appear
Moses saw the bush in flames
And heard the branches speak his name
I wonder if he felt this kind of fear?
Cuz I'm burnin'. Yeah I'm burnin'.
And I know I'm gonna blister in these flames.
But I'll stay here till this smoke clears,
And I'll find You in the ashes that remain.
Used to be that I could say
My faith was one arm's length away
From any flame that ever felt to warm
I asked for matches I recieved
A gallon full of gasoline
Now my cozy campfire days are gone.
And I'm burnin'. Yeah I'm burnin'.
And I know I'm gonna blister in these flames
But I'll stay here till this smoke clears,
And I'll find You in the ashes that remain
Knock with caution at the door.
They said, beware of what you're praying for,
So I'll stand with my whole desire
In the middle of this forest fire
Till I've nothing left to show
And new life begins to grow.
Cuz I'm burnin'. Yeah I'm burnin'.
And I know I'm gonna blister in these flames.
But I'll stay here till this smoke clears,
And I'll find You in the ashes that remain.
Burnin' ~ Nichole Nordeman ~ Wide Eyed
These songs have become my spiritual theme songs over the past few weeks. My greatest desire is to be on fire with passion for the glory of Christ, and to do that I know that I will have to die to my old self and have my impurities burned away. I am not satisfied to remain the way I am. Hence "Thought I was learning how to take...but really I've been learning how to die" and "...I'm burnin'. And I know I'm gonna blister in these flames." Both Nichole Nordeman and Jon Foreman have some music that is really good for quiet time preparation. God is really working on me. I am so grateful that He relentlessly pursues me. Even in my wretchedness, He sees only the work of Christ His Son and continues what He began in me.
I feel I ought to mention that (1.) this is finals week, and so is next week. I have it pretty good, none of my classes are terribly difficult or require excessive studying. But please pray for me anyway becuase I am still a bit stressed over it. And (2.) Ecuador is fast approaching. May 22 through June 5 (or possibly 6) are the dates for the trip. If you are interested, please let me know so I can get you in contact with Daddy. My heart is really burdened for the Tsachila. I feel like I have gone on trips to be with friends on the team, but this year, I am really concerned for their salvation. I pray that God will make me useful for His work on this trip. I want my life and my words to shine the light of Christ into the darkness of this people group.
